Earlier that day, I sang.
Not for anyone. Not on purpose.
Just… because it came out of me.
“How Great Thou Art.”
I hadn’t sung that song in years.
And I didn’t realize until later—it wasn’t just a hymn. It was a key. A vibration. A preparation.
My voice was opening a door.
I just didn’t know what needed to come through yet.
That night, something rose inside me.
Not a thought. Not a memory.
A movement. A pressure. A knowing.
It felt like something ancient had reached the edge of me and was asking for release.
I didn’t resist. I didn’t control it.
There was this inward pull—like air being drawn deep from the center of me—and then a sound left my mouth.
Not a scream. Not a sob.
A frequency.
A raw, vibrational tone that didn’t feel like mine, but also… did.
It was strange. Low. Lingering.
It wasn’t loud, but it echoed. Inside me. Around me. Through me.
I wasn’t afraid.
But I was very aware.
Whatever left me in that moment—it wasn’t new.
It was old. Heavy. Generational.
It felt like grief. But not the kind I could name.
The kind that lived in my bloodline.
The kind that had no words but had always been with me.
The kind that had settled in my chest like a tenant—quiet, invisible, constant.
And that tone—whatever that sound was—that was its way out.
I didn’t cry.
Not the way you’d expect.
No collapse. No dramatic release.
Just breath.
And a hollowing.
And then… stillness.
Not emptiness.
Just space.
The kind you only feel after something sacred exits.
I know now the song was part of it.
My voice opened something in me earlier that day.
And when I sang those words—“then sings my soul…”
I didn’t know my soul was listening.
Or that it was getting ready to sing back.
I’ve carried a lot that wasn’t mine.
Grief I couldn’t explain. Emotions that didn’t feel like they started with me.
And I’ve learned that the body doesn’t need permission to let go—only safety.
That night, I gave it enough.
Enough softness. Enough stillness.
Enough voice.
And my body did the rest.
This wasn’t a breakdown.
This was a remembering.
A release.
And maybe I’ll never be able to explain exactly what left me.
But I know what it felt like when it did.
Like silence.
Like freedom.
Like grace.
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